My world has been slowly coming apart brick by brick in the past week.
From my last post, my colleague cautioned me - open yourself up as such to God and be ready for trials and tribulations to come your way. But I told her - God will not forsake me.
I am fighting hard to keep the hope up. At the end of the day, He has showed me that He can make miracles happen if it is within His Will, not mine.
It's a mystery. But then again, so is life. Keep the faith! Fight hard to keep it!
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Monday, November 14, 2011
Higher Ground
Today marks the 5th month anniversary of completing the Camino for me. Given the time difference, 5 months ago, I was depleted - drained of everything within me.
I have spent the last 5 months searching for the reason, or the Big Change as some would call it. Yet in reflection, I have done the complete opposite that one would expect of a pilgrim.
And so tonight, in remembering the journey I undertook, I write this prayer:
Lord, I offer you my life - my hands, my feet, my tongue, my eyes and my ears. But more importantly, I offer you my heart, that which I have kept contain in a glass box. Thinking it much safer to be admired but not touch.
I know in that offering you my heart, I am opening myself to pains, hurts and quite possibly much suffering. But I also believe that because You love me, You would do all within Your power from allowing that to happen to me.
And in knowing that and still giving it up to You, I offer myself to the miracles that awaits me in accordance to Your Will be done. May You bless this gift and accept it for the rest of the days of my life.
Amen.
I have spent the last 5 months searching for the reason, or the Big Change as some would call it. Yet in reflection, I have done the complete opposite that one would expect of a pilgrim.
And so tonight, in remembering the journey I undertook, I write this prayer:
Lord, I offer you my life - my hands, my feet, my tongue, my eyes and my ears. But more importantly, I offer you my heart, that which I have kept contain in a glass box. Thinking it much safer to be admired but not touch.
I know in that offering you my heart, I am opening myself to pains, hurts and quite possibly much suffering. But I also believe that because You love me, You would do all within Your power from allowing that to happen to me.
And in knowing that and still giving it up to You, I offer myself to the miracles that awaits me in accordance to Your Will be done. May You bless this gift and accept it for the rest of the days of my life.
Amen.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
At the end of it
My church has been disseminating information on the Camino as some holy tour company has decided that this is the "new" destination for Malaysians / Asians to head towards.
I am slightly disappointed as those who are keen associate it with the journey I undertook. And the disappointment stems purely from the fact that they will be walking a mere small fraction of the way and bussing it for the rest.
A family friend recently remarked to my dad how their pilgrimage to either Lourdes or Fatima (I forget!) was so uncomfortable, how the roads and buses in Europe are bad. I listen to it with utter disdain.
How unChristian, I know! But I'd like to believe that if one choses to embark on a pilgrimage - it is the journey there that matters, and not the end itself.
To each their own, I suppose.
I am slightly disappointed as those who are keen associate it with the journey I undertook. And the disappointment stems purely from the fact that they will be walking a mere small fraction of the way and bussing it for the rest.
A family friend recently remarked to my dad how their pilgrimage to either Lourdes or Fatima (I forget!) was so uncomfortable, how the roads and buses in Europe are bad. I listen to it with utter disdain.
How unChristian, I know! But I'd like to believe that if one choses to embark on a pilgrimage - it is the journey there that matters, and not the end itself.
To each their own, I suppose.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Wonders and the Hand of God
This is the view of KL City's most famous icon - The KL Twin Towers - from my balcony on a clear night.
Ask me 6 months ago if I thought I'd be privileged enough to have an address with such a view, I'd have laughed you out of town. Yet, this is real - on top of looking forward to another view in 2 years time that would be all green and zen.
Just this itself is testament - the Wonders of God and how His Hand can move mountains.
Amen!
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